the Eternal Love Revolution

Today disappointed me. I decided to fly to Canton, where my Dad was raised, since my brother was upset that I was missing the family gathering. I spent more money on the ticket than I should, but it was probably worth not hearing my brother whining about it for, oh, the rest of my life. I figured I would talk to my neighbors on the plane, but that was a bust as the first plane was too packed to pull my camera out from my bag, and the girl sitting next to me on the second was underage. Once in Ohio…well, I’ve got a lot of family that wanted to see me. At least I shot illegal footage of take-off and landing. You’ve got to luv that, Southwest. I also worked on an essay for a book that my interviewee John Wade invited me to write about creating heaven on Earth.

An illegal view of landing.

The NFL Hall of Fame

I’ve been feeling very conflicted about the process today. I need to decide if I can keep heading east, or if I should head back west and make some more money. I hit up a job in Canton to photo assist, and that would help. I thought this trip would push me towards answers, but it inspires more questions. Is this what I ought to be doing with my life? If I wasn’t doing this, it would probably be driving me crazy. If I fail, at least it will be out of my system Why not work on one of my screenplays? Javi suggested I do that on the road, but I haven’t been able to make that work as of yet. I haven’t been able to shoot all the stuff I wanted (especially beauty B-roll), I’m making some technical mistakes, and I’m not connecting or conversing at the level I wish, because I’m worrying about the technical aspects. I love film for collaboration, and this is not that, though I got a ton of help from Mark and Gabe. Part of the deal is that my funds are quite limited already, and I’ve decided I can’t return to LA completely broke. There are benefits. While I’m still not completely comfortable cold approaching people, but I’m much more comfortable showing affection to all kinds of people. My personal faith remains intact, if not strengthened by the widespread recognition of other religion’s legitimate access to truth. Today was the first time I had someone compare my project to a movie starring Kirk Cameron. I don’t know if I want to be associated with him. Alan Thicke on the other hand, well, I can always dream…

L&P,

MM